Oh ho it's too bad you suck

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QUinny is with me on tour and we had some driknings! Mostly Deidre did the drinking becase she has a nanny and she can drink now so she's a pirate in the bed with my husband! And Spectre is telling me to get off the computer because we have to go to GLAsgcow to morrow!

It was a very nice first concertt for Frankenstein though yay!
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Pissed off

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I don't know if you read this, though I suspect you do to keep an eye on me, which is just...messed up.

Nothing is going on between Deirdre and me. We are best friends. I love her but I am not in love with her. Not trusting me is fine, you don't know me, but not trusting her is insulting and rude.

And if you ever speak to her again like you did tonight, I am going to break your nose.
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Pale Blue

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Today at work we were asked to do several evaluations on some of the newer inhabitants of the shelter. This is a government thing, otherwise I'd tell them to shove off. But we have to do it. It's a scale that apparently ranks the chances of someone to offend or reoffend. The thing is...okay, I get that risk assessment is very important in the kind of work I do, but these scales seem so...pathetic. It's a tool to assist in the risk assessment, and that's all it's meant to be. I worry about people taking these kinds of things too seriously. So I called my staff together and I showed them how I ranked on the scale.

The scale asked about how many times the person had been in trouble with the law and at what age. It asked about support systems and where the person lived. It was all given a numerical value, depending on what was seen as unlikely to commit a crime, up to likely. I answered it as of now. I said I had a stable home and support network, but that in the past I had been known by the police, I had started fires and committed offenses and on and on...I scored a very high 45 out of 60. Very likely to offend or reoffend. And I'm sorry, but I'm moved past that. The scale just doesn't have a catergory for 'has changed their tune'. So we talked about using the tool the way it was meant to be used, and utilising the brain more than a piece of paper when deciding the fate of some poor kid who just maybe was in a desperate situation and didn't have a choice, or was acting out because of the way they were treated at home.

Or a kid who didn't know any better because all they had ever been shown was violence and aggression. And the moment they met someone who told them life didn't have to be that way, they changed and never looked back.

People aren't scales. They aren't statues either. Anyone can change and while our pasts contribute to who we are, they do not solely define us. It's what we do and who we are now that matters.
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Looking away

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Today I took a walk in the park because it had been so long since I just wandered. I spent so long wandering because I had nowhere to go. Now I have somewhere to go, and I have somehow managed to fill my life to the brim so that there is never a time when I am idle and at a loss for something to do. For some reason being idle scares me. And now there is my husband and my best friend and my housemate and my band and my shelter and my friends and and and sometimes I like to read a book because Quinny likes smart boys.

Today, there was nothing, and I took that walk. And I realised how tired I am.

I came home and my husband was waiting for me. He had lunch there waiting for me, and then we ate together and talked. And it was wonderful. Spectre called and told me to take the afternoon off. Deirdre brought over about ten thousand biscuits... It was as if every single person I love read my mind and knew what I needed.

I am the luckiest man in the world.
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Gay and purple

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Spectre and I played guitar together like some two-headed guitar-playing freak! It was awesome and it worked and then Spectre said he might feel like he had stuck his hands in a sink disposal tomorrow (ew...) but we did it!

Also, Quinny and I took a walk outside and he's doing very well. And I am pleased!
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